literature

can i get a definition?

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i wish i could write something smooth,
something anchored to explain that this isn't
your fault, but my own insecurites that are shining
through our love like a spotlight looking for fugitives.

forgive me for this.

it's somewhere along the lines
of sprinting down a hill
and not being able to catch
my own god damned feet.

it's spinning out of control and
crashing in the snow and bleeding
red all over the white because it's
one step forward, two steps back.

i'm counting the days until you see that my january eyes
are liars and this sculpted smile is only pretty because
of $2,000 braces. my face is nothing but practiced perfection
and all the scars are in the last place you'd think to look.

you're loving the idea of loving me when all that's in my head
is past loved, dark haired, freckles-and-hate-and-devil-may-care
destruction. when my mind revolves, he is the sun that won't
burn out, even when i'm screaming and throwing fists against the walls.

this isn't a confession, but a fact.
i'm coughing up vowels and rhymes
to match his name, and imagining
life if we did survive that storm.

i'm spitting up choruses and throwing down maddness
through poetry because i can't shake this unforgiving
feeling that the only thing separating you from him
                   is a colt .45 and bad idea.
is there even a word for it?
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AlecWolfe's avatar
:faint: I really love your style, I do. This is so easy to read but the way it is written kept me interested. I like your imagery and your wording... and yeah, your writing. Great piece!